Undutchable

October 9th, 2005

He hasn’t seen her for a while, he let her jump into the world outside, no matter how painful it would be for him to see this white dove flew away from him and didn’t come back. This white dove flew away, enjoying everything she could. From a far distance she arrived on a tree, looked at the place where he stood. She wanted to fly back to say how much she loves him but she cancelled her plan and flew away to another place where she thought she could have a new life without him. So there she was, in a strange place which is full of strangers. Everything seemed nice, everything seemed okay, all the other birds were friendly, they came to her and wondered how clean and white are her wings which covered her body as no other bird in that place has a very clean, white wings as she has even though few of the white birds tried to clean their wings. Till one day she met a black crow that seemed different than the other birds and got caught in a long conversation with him. Everything’s still fun till the day’s over and she’s back to her nest she thought about everything happened in a day. Every bird let her did what she wanted to, while the other birds that didn’t really know her still wondered where this very white dove came from and how she could have such a beautiful wings. They noticed that this white dove has been protected by another white dove and she had never been to this very wild world before. The black crow that had a very long conversation with her also kept wondering about her, he reminded her to the past and she thought it’s nice to talk to this bird. He pretended to be a good bird she thought he’s, but in the end this white dove realised that lots of birds especially this black crow said different to each bird which confused her a lots. Every day when the day passed she did what she wanted, got involved with the old bad habit she used to do in the past. First it’s just because she met other birds who also did the same things as she did. She thought she already forgot her better half and could stand on her own foot.

The black crow seemed to disturb her life and confuse her in all the words he said. As all the birds knew how wild and untrustable a black crow is in general, she described this black crow as another black crows that exist on this earth. She, who in the first time, had never met a crow, learnt something more. In the night she kept thinking how different her better half is, how perfect he is in her eyes, now she learnt more why he did the things which she thought it looked like being in a dark hole. She kept comparing other birds to him, still he’s better. She, who first wanted to get her freedom, got regret that she’s disappeared while that other white dove was waiting, hoping her to come back. Life as it is, is very wild outside, she realised she couldn’t stand on her own foots. The holy month of Ramadhan has started, she remembered him, she came back home and all the memories in the past popped up on her mind again. She realised that no matter how fun and great the days were, no matter how happy she could be, something’s missing because there’s no him between all the birds she has met. She sat alone in a dark corner, thinking about everything and her tears slowly covered her face. Only one thing she now had on her mind, she flew to his place and found him there standing alone. She, who has not seen him since she left the place, saw him back. He’s still the best creature for her, he looked even better in her eyes, standing gently near by the door, his white wings looked more cleaner than before, he’s still the cutest white dove for her. He couldn’t believe what he saw, the white dove he saw was the white dove he used to know for months, it’s her … she’s back! He took her hands, kissed her and finally hugged her passionately. He’s glad that he saw her back while she was leaning on his breast, felt the warmness of his love, didn’t want to go away from him again. It’s him, her place to forget all her problems, her place to feel that someone cares for her, he’s her better half. She whispered softly in his ear,”no matter how far I went, how long you’ve not seen me, just remember that you’re always in my heart. The world outside is too wild for me, take me forever with you.” He caressed her hair and hugged her even more. “Welcome back! Forgive me for what I’ve done, my love” he whispered back. These two white doves then flew together, explored the days together and live happily ever after.

This is just a story that’s made in 2005, after smoking some weed ;-)