Have you ever felt that the thing you usually do become the worsest thing you’ve done? This probably sounds weird, but this is what I felt on sunday, december 27th, 2009.

But, what did I feel? I felt I’m done with smoking,something in my heart said,”alright, vanes! It’s enough!! Enough with those cigarettes!” and I started to hate my smoking habit, I started to hate cigarette’s smoke.

After this day, I didn’t stop smoking directly but managed to smoke menthol cigarette and I smoked lesser.
Day 1 (monday): 4 cigarettes
Day 2 (tuesday): 3 cigarettes
Day 3 (wednesday): 2 cigarettes
Day 4 (thursday): 2 cigarettes
Day 5 (friday): none
and so on…!

This is a weird situation for me, because I had always been thinking that it’s very, very, very hard to stop smoking, but I have stopped without any difficulty. What I meant to say is that, before, when I tried to stop smoking, I felt sensitive, I felt like I was in a rush to buy something and I kept on counting the time about how many hours I haven’t smoked, and such.

More thing which I find weird is that people around asked me why I didn’t smoke when I was with them, and my friend discussed about smoking room when we were at church as if she already heard that I’m not a smoker anymore and wanted to know whether or not it’s true. Maybe it’s just my paranoid thought, but it made me tell her I’m not smoking anymore. I actually didn’t wanna tell it because I wanted to proove being non-smoker for longer time first before I started telling people that I’m a non-smoker now. When people around me asked why I didn’t smoke I only told them that I wasn’t in my mood to smoke.

When my dad bought his cigarette, I couldn’t stand his cigarette’s smoke and had to leave the living room, but as what smokers had told me earlier about stopping with smoking:

“Girl, I’ve tried to stop smoking, but whenever I was with my friends who are smokers, I felt like smoking again and here I am, smoking again!”

“Girl, I’ve tried to stop smoking, but all I felt was sensitiveness, I kept on grumbling, I felt mad the whole day and I felt that I missed something!”

“Girl, I’ve tried to stop smoking, but whenever I got problems, all I wanted was smoking to calm me down!”

Only one is valid for me: which is the first reason; I indeed felt like smoking after I found out that my dad had a cigarette. I did smoke one, but then I gave it back to him. I felt like smoking, but my body couldn’t stand it no more and cigarette’s smoke omg stinks big time!

Few people asked me how I stopped, honestly I don’t know. I had not planned to stop smoking neither. I didn’t chew nicotine chewing gum, I didn’t consult my doctor, I just didn’t smoke and it is the best logical way to stop smoking: don’t smoke and don’t buy cigarette (right?).

But, if you do have a plan to stop smoking, I have some advices here:
- Do something else, do something which makes you forget to smoke
- Buy lollipops so every time you wanna smoke you start to suck a lollipop instead
- Just imagine you’re with your non-smoker friends and you’re currently smoking; I’ll tell you what they probably think: you stink big time! So? Every time you want to start smoking, think about this stinkyness, you don’t want people to tell you stink, right? ;)
But the most important thing is: DO YOU REALLY WANT TO STOP?!?

Okay, I’m going to tell you another truth here:

Notice why I gave you a date on my very first paragraph? December 27th, 2009. What did exactly happen that I could remember this? Since I’ve met pastor Ayemoo from Nigeria, the feeling of disliking cigarette’s smoke appears, Pastor didn’t say anything to me, he only looked sharply at me, but it already set me free from the thing that has shackled me for years which was nicotine. I feel that my Lord has sent him to me for this! I may be a bad girl, but I really feel His presence in my daily life as I’ve asked Him to guide me, accompany me, to keep me strong with my decision which is to stop smoking (I asked this after I found out that I dislike cigarette’s smoke).

If you do believe in miracle, miracle does happen! The Christmas theme this time was about miracle; Pastor Ayemo has cured a deaf man, paralyzed man, and sicknesses. All of this could happen with the help of our Lord, Jesus Christ!

My miracles:
- I have been smoking since I was 16 years old and I haven’t stopped till last December 2009. Now I am 28; It is not possible for me to not feeling sensitive, rush, etc if I don’t smoke, but I had not felt any of these things since I stopped! Normally, I would spend 1 pack of cigarettes (25 cigarettes) in 1 1/2 day
- I didn’t need nicotine chewing gum, or doctor’s advice to help me stop smoking, Lord is above all of this!

My big test is to survive without smoking,
My bigger test is to not smoking when I’m with my smoker friends
But my biggest test is to not smokig when I have problems. This last one has not happened yet because I don’t get any problem yet that will make me feel down, but I hope I won’t start smoking if problems come!